How do I know if I have Trauma? Part 1 What is Trauma?

Trauma.What came to mind when you read that word?

Was it war? Violence? A major accident? Abuse?

If it was, you wouldn’t be alone. The more I talk with people, it’s the major events that seem to be most associated with the word trauma. And for good reason. War, Abuse, Violence, Racism, Poverty, Neglect and their link with trauma have been well studied and documented.

However, trauma isn’t just the big terrible events that happen to us. Sometimes, trauma can be found in what didn’t happen.

We get the word trauma from the Greek word traûma, which means “wound.” Originally it was meant for physical injuries. It didn’t matter if the injury was caused by a blow from battle, or a thousand paper cuts, it was called trauma. It wasn’t the event that determined the physical trauma one had sustained, it was the wound itself that was called trauma. Over time this word has evolved to include psychological and emotional wounds as well.

Some of the deepest, most lasting wounds come from consistent everyday misattunements. These are when a parent is too stressed or overwhelmed to notice your sadness. Perhaps being criticized instead of comforted when you were scared. Or having to hide parts of yourself like anger, tenderness, creativity, wildness, curiosity, sadness, spunk, etc. in order to stay connected to the people you loved and needed the most.

Maybe no one meant to hurt you. Most likely they were struggling or even wounded themselves. And what was slowly and silently absorbed without words was, I am wrong to feel what I feel, its not ok to be fully me, its not safe to need this much.